Insomnia...perhaps?

By definition it means difficulty initiating or maintaining sleep, or both".

I've been dealing with this for about a week now.

Kinda sucks cuz i feel tired throughout the day. Like today i made too many stupid amateur mistakes in class. I just wanted to slap myself for being like that.

I have tried to force myself to bed to go to sleep but i start feeling like my chest is closing up and feel kinda sicky.

Blah...i kinda looked up what can cause it...so i narrowed it down to probable causes

1) Due to stress from people i live with (cuz definitely its not school or work)

2) Depression ...just a lil bit

3) The caffeine pills covered in chocolate (lol kidding)

Something was also listed there but dont know if it will apply to me at this moment. One was withdrawal from medication, but i stopped around august ..i think. So its way too long ago for it to bother me now.

Two was trauma to the brain.The seizure i had last year did leave some damage.

Oh well if this continues for another week then i'm gonna see my Doc.

....since i'm done writing this...i'm bored again....wish there was some homework to do, then i can pass the time until sleep comes.


Anywhooooo!! tooodles my poodles!

Past year and New Year

Well since its 11days in to 2010. Sorry its late but I've finally accepted the idea that we are in the new-year, therefore i write about how my 2009 was and how 2010 is going so far...(<-- that is just bullcrap, in reality i was just lazy mwahahah)

Looking back at 2009...it was eventful...kinda a roller coaster ride for me, mentally and physically..
I had some significant changes that had happened. Lost a family member i loved. My health was affected. Lost a huge chunk of my memory. Lost support from family members. And was in state of shock and depressed for a while.

But good things happened too. Things that helped me move on and overcome. Sure i lost support from family members (due to career path i chose) but that helped to motivate me and drives me to prove them wrong. Bad news for them eh?

The most important thing, i figured out what i wanna do really (for future), well not by myself. I owe a huge debt to the "person" who gave me that support and made me realize it (Thankyou, even though you might say it wasn't that huge)

AND! i got an awesome cute, pretty, cuddly & fluffy kitten. :)

 So 2010, started good then it became bad. I became sick with cold or flu (watever) and was pretty much stuck to bed for two days. And on top of that first week of my rd semester started...yay me -__-

So do i have a new years resolution?...No..

I know what i wanna do and what i wanna achieve. So i'll keep on doing what i do and i'm happy with it. :)

So thanks to those who stick with me through out this year and more to come. ..damn this blog became long...and emo-y.....meh i'm an emo nerd!

TOODLES MY LOVIES!  XD